Something dawned on me today and I almost feel stupid and guilty for doing this, but this 20 day challenge is dumb. I keep going through these valleys and peaks in my diet/exercise/weight loss/weight gain and it’s not what I should be doing. What I should be doing is a permanent lifestyle change. I shouldn’t get deterred or be so hard on myself when my weight fluctuates, rather, I should really be focusing on changing bad eating habits and making the right decisions/choices. It’s like someone told me, don’t focus so much on weight and numbers, but focus on how you feel, how you look, your confidence, and how your clothes fit. It’s easier said than done because I am quite possibly obsessed with numbers and the scale, but I really need to stop going on these week long diet spurts and day phases/challenges, but rather make a holistic lifestyle change. So, yes, I may seem like a hypocrite, but screw the 20 day challenge. I’ve worked so hard since August to feel better about my body, and honestly, I am proud of the results and not only am I noticing, but family and friends are noticing and I should be happy with my progress. RAWR!!!!!!!!!!